BIG MOMMA PERF OH YEAH~

Hello BMP Family. Ito ay isang message na kailangan niyong basahin lahat. Love, BIG MOMMA AND BEE (yes, magkasama kami ngayon). Haha. Please welcome Pola, Seysey, Con and Stephen to the family~ Yay. Group nila, in the making pa. Hahahaha. Loljk. SM the ballad kami LOLJK.

So ito na ang ating gagawin for our performance on Saturday. Please be there by 6am. NO LATE kasi hindi makakapasok kung hindi darating before 7. Kung hindi makakarating, makakapasok lang ng 10am. Pipila kayo dun sa labas kasama nung mga maghihintay.

Dapat pakinggan ng mabuti lahat yung kanta kasi may binago kami ni Momma. Total of 10 minutes yung kanta para sulit lahat since hindi na matutuloy si Te-Teyang (LOL the name). MUSIC: http://www.4shared.com/audio/qAA_5S1h/BMPERF1.html

1. UKMG -- Yung sa inyo yung bago. Mas pinahaba namin. May cut yun kaya kailangan niyo pakinggan talaga. And practice please. Parang yung sa after ng 1st chorus ng "Oppaneun (yung part ni Dongho)", yung pinalit namin dun yung "Oppaneun" sa dulo para maganda yung ending. So wala ring problema, mag-pose lang kayo dun or whatever.

2. Dagdag ng THEBITCHY aka Yeddah and Berna para mas mahaba yung perf. Kasi gusto nila Ate Kring ng may kanta. Yeddy, dun na yun mag-start sa "Call me, Tell me, Hold me..."

3. Go Away and Beautiful wala ng stop yun. Dirediretso lang. Nebi and Daniel, kayo yung huhugot kay Mommy sa baba. Basta hanapin niyo siya at hihilain niyo siya sa stage. Magpapanggap daw siya na hindi niya alam na hihilain natin siya. LOL.

4. STEPS: Walang sasayaw sa 8282. Lahat nakatalikod pa rin. Magsasayaw lang sa Go Away at Beautiful ang lahat.

STEPS FOR GO AWAY: Lahat nasa likod nagpaparty-party. Wag tumingin sa audience. Parang nasa club lang. Ang nakatingin lang sa audience ay si Ate Zee, Chris, Berna at Yeddy tapos kumakanta sila. WATCH THIS: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vbN6vxG52RY

STEPS FOR BEAUTIFUL: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=heiEfhlpYmg Nandyan si Hyori. Isipin niyo siya si Big Mama. Ganyan lang yung gagawin natin. Bigay ang mic kay Pola dahil siya yung sa rap. Tapos iwan na yung mic sa iba. PAKI-ARAL ANG BOW DAHIL YUN AY ANG ATING BOW LOL. May ikot yun ah. Kaya kailangan niyong panuorin at pakinggan yang link na binigay kong perf ng Beast. Tapos sa mga parts na may "YOU, SO BEAUTIFUL", tuturo si Big Momma. Tapos merong mga lalakeng lumalandi sa kanya, okay? Lalake = ES at TOPTEENS. Kayo na bahala. Pag-usapan niyo na lang.

5. DAPAT ARAL NINYONG LAHAT DAHIL PAG-DATING SA REHEARSAL SA STAGE, ISANG ROUND LANG ANG GAGAWIN.

6. ElementShine, polish Juliette. Dapat daw sabay-sabay na kayo diyan.

7. Pag sinabing nakatalikod, nakatalikod ang lahat. No extra movements. Walang chikahan and everything dahil madidistract yung mga tao at hindi mapapansin yung mga nasa gitna na magpeperform.

8. COSTUME = Everybody should be in white (BIG MOMMA SHIRT). Kayo na bahala sa pambaba niyo. From what we know, ang gagawin niyo parang per group may susuot na something. Like, E.S. = Colorful pants. 9Flames = Palda + Jacket. TopTeens = Red vest/jacket. TS01 = Black/dark pants. UKMG = ano ang sa inyo? Others = bahala na kayo basta yung BMomma shirt ang gamit.

9. BUNUTAN FOR CHRISTMAS PARTY KAYA KAILANGAN COMPLETE. Ia-announce saan ang venue natin for the Christmas party. Prolly December 18 ang party since di na matutuloy ang album/dvd launch ng Ukiss. Is everybody okay with that? And start tayo ng 3pm - sawa. Tapos overnight kila Berna kung sino yung gusto.

10. By the way, yung mga MABIBITIN SA KPOPCON, pwede mag-overnight kila Berna. Just bring food like de-lata, noodles, or whatever. Mahiya tayo kay Berna (SI MOMMY NAGSABI NIYAN, HINDI AKO.) Tapos, inuman? Hahahahahaha.

11. MATULOG NG MAAGA ANG LAHAT SA FRIDAY PARA WALANG EXCUSES NA MALELATE. Wag ipahiya si Mommy. Mommy is counting on you kasi binigyan na tayo ng chance makapag-perform kaya kung sino man ang walang gagawin after ng performances, tulungan si Mommy pagkatapos para hindi pumangit ang pangalan ng BMP. Yanno, issues of some people. Malabo utak. Oh yeah~

12. BRING IDS. Hindi makakapasok ang walang ID! And 150 pesos ah. May entrance pa rin tayong lahat. Para to sa Gawad Kalinga. Pati ang whole Kpop Committee magbabayad.

13. Sino may kakilala na pwedeng mag-video sa ating perf? Kailangan may 2 magvi-video sa atin.

14. Pag nasigawan ni Big Momma, di siya galit, okay? Kasi sobrang stressful talaga yung gagawin ng mga organizers sa araw na yun. Intindihin na lang at pagpasensyahan. Wala pa kaming mga tulog. Pasensya. Haha.

15. Performance natin mga 11:00 am. Kaya dapat nakakumpol lahat ng 10 sa isang lugar lang. Walang magpapaligoy-ligoy kung saan saan dahil masyadong maraming tao, mahihirapan tayo maghanapan. SUPER LAKI NG VENUE. Maawa kayo. Mga wala tayong pang-tawag. Be mindful of your things. Keep your cellphones and wallet with you. You can leave your stuffs sa backstage pero wag kayong magiwan ng valuables. Let's just be sure na walang mawawalan sa atin ng mga gamit.

16. Walang mabibigay na food for the perfomers. Baka tubig lang daw, pero not sure pa. Kulang kasi tayo sa budget, paki-understand na lang. May concessionaire na magbebenta dun ng food. Pero mas maganda na mag-baon na lang tayo ng di masaway kasi bawal magpasok ng mcdo, jollibee ganun ganun. Bring lang ng snacks, chichirya and the like, tubig, para menos gastos.

17. Yung mga magme-makeup/maga-ayos, lahat dapat magkakasama na para yung mga plantsa and everything, sa may saksakan kasi may time din yun. Dun tayo sa booth ng FREE HUG (yung shop ni Mommy at ni Kuya Edmar). DUN LAHAT KUKUMPOL OKAY. DUN ANG MEETING PLACE NG LAHAT, OKAY. Pag sinabing magkikita lahat, DOON MAGKIKITA LAHAT. Tapat yun ng UKISSMEPH BOOTH.

18. POLA, CEDRIX, CON and STEPHEN. Kung gusto niyo daw sumama sa perf, go lang. Tatayo lang naman din tayo dun LOL. Tapos party party lang at nakatalikod. Wiiiih.

19. Kung anong napag-usapan dito, walang kakalat. Alam niyo naman siguro may mga taong walang magawa sa buhay. Alam niyo naman na tayo ay mainit sa mata ng mga demanding na tao. Oh yeah~

20. GOOD LUCK EVERYONE. MAY DONGWOON WITH ME. MAY HYUNJOONG BE WITH MOMMA. MAY THE FORCE OF SHINEE, SNSD, UKISS, TEENTOP, SS501, DAVICHI, 2NE1, BEAST AND THE WHOLE KPOP INDUSTRY BE WITH US ALL. AJA AJA FIGHTING. KAMSAHAMNIDA.

TENGENUH NIYO DAPAT MABASA NIYO TO DAHIL SOBRANG HABA NITO AT PINAGHIRAPAN NAMIN TO NI MOMMY. PAG ITO HINDI NIYO NABASA, SASAMPALIN NAMIN KAYO ISAISA. HAHAHAHAHA. FEMALE DOGS~ Lol.

My Boys

Under repair

So my horoscope last month said:A person from your past will come back into your life today, and their transformation will be remarkable -- but not necessarily in a good way. Give them the benefit of the doubt and do not jump to conclusions about what has caused the changes that you are seeing. You yourself have changed probably more than you realize -- so accept the fact that people don't stay the same. Give them a chance to re-introduce themselves to you. Keep an open mind.

Well I was back in Cebu for the weekend last June 20-22 to watch the much awaited One Voice Asia Unite event. It was such a great experience. Met so many new people and even had so much fun. Well I missed 1 person on that short vacay but I know she's somewhere more important that weekened :) <3>
Surprisingly, though he still seemed the same to me, there were some noticeable transformations. He was still the same stubborn, nonchalant boy I knew with the new haircut though, but this time he seems more fragile, more honest, much more responsible and I admire him for finally growing up. He used to be such an insensitive guy who only thinks about himself. He has admitted his vulnerability, and that made him more attractive to me than when he was being too unbreakable. I'm just happy that someone finally took my advice seriously and is starting to build his dreams now.
But I need space. I just needed more time to heal. Just a little more. He doesn't really understand this, maybe because he didn't feel the pain that I went through when we broke up or with what I'm going through right now, every time I see him not with me anymore..or coz I was the one who loved more and not him *ouch*.. Recovering from a broken heart doesn't happen overnight. And I'm not even heartbroken. I'm just... broken. So right now I'm trying my best to avoid him. I'll stand by my decision this time and be more stronger. I've always been so weak when it comes to him but I know I had to do this. This for sure is for my own good. What happened to us in Cebu will be the last and I'll try my very best not to make it happen again. I'm gonna stand up and move forward. What just hurts right now is not coz I don't have him, or not being able to see him again, or not that it ended so soon. What hurts is being betrayed by the person you gave your heart and everything to, especially if you were nothing but good to him.
So I'm going to have to wait a few more weeks..months or years even before I can completely, honestly glue myself back together, just like new. I doubt, though, that I will ever be completely "just like new" because this experience has traumatized me, that I know I will never be the same again. I no longer believe in happy endings or soul mates or even marriage. But maybe it's for the better. At least now, I'm less idealistic and more realistic. No expectations or fantasies... maybe this is the safest way to go ... right?

No time

I can't seem to find the time to write something here. Grrrr. I have so much to say, to write to share *sighs*

I'll be back to post a better long one :)

Take time to realize

"i love you an"

I don't think I've ever actually heard him say "i love you" to anyone before. And he's not the sappiest person in the world. So yeah, that made me cry...

Okay okay I'm getting too emotional all over again. Geez, he always makes me feel like this everytime he texts me outta nowhere with a 1 liner like i miss you, i want to see you ... and now this? *sighs* For real I really don't know what to think anymore. I thought I got over him.. about us. That it could never work out, that staying as friends is whats best for us. But why text me with this?

I just woke up and I checked my celly with 12 unread msgs from the usual people who sends me non stop quotes everyday and as always I deleted the sloppy cheesy ones. His txt was the last 1 I read...

whoa. wait. what was that again??? i rubbed my eyes to make sure I was reading the right words. And there I frozed, staring at my fone screen. Seconds later my eyes are getting blurry and tears just suddenly flowing. What took him so long to say this? Why just now, when I've decided to stop feeling for him and start to move forward. He is such a jerk for doing this to me right now. I didn't dare reply to his text. I just don't know what to say to him right now. Should I ask? Should I say I love you too? or should I just forget this? Stupid me, I deleted the text after staring at it for 5 minutes. I just couldn't take in the pain. Why pain when I should be happy right? Pain coz it hurts so much to know that he just realized now that he loves me.. "pala"

*big sigh* I've loved him ever since he first kissed me that night at their house, loved him despite his imperfections, his being stubborn and the insensitive kind of guy. I've fallen in love with him and that's not going to change for a long time.

So now I'm stuck with this song.. hahays... cry it all out tonight mirz..

Realize

by: Colbie Caillat

Take time to realize

that your warmth is crashing down on me.

Take time to realize

that I am on your side.

Didn't I, didn't I tell you?

But I can't spell it out for you.

No, it's never gonna be that simple.

No, I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realize what I just realized,

Then we'd be perfect for each other,

And we'll never find another.

Just realize what I just realized,

We'd never have to wonder,

If we missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize,

Oh, oh, I'm on your side.

Didn't I, didn't I tell you?

Take time to realize this all can pass you by.

Didn't I tell you?

But I can't spell it out for you.

No, it's never gonna be that simple.

No, I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realize what I just realized,

Than we'd be perfect for each other,

And we'll never find another.

Just realize what I just realized,

We'd never have to wonder,If we missed out on each other oh.

It's not the same.

No, it's never the same,

If you don't feel it too.

If you meet me halfway,

If you would meet me halfway,

It can be the same for you.

If you just realize what I just realized,

Than we'd be perfect for each other,

And we'll never find another.

Just realize what I just realized,

We'd never have to wonder...

Just realize what I just realized,

If you just realize what I just realized...

ooh ooh.Missed out on each other now.

Missed out on each other now.

Realize, realize, realize, realize, oh

Going back

Wow. Another blog. I haven't written or let's just say typed in a blog for so long now. I used to keep an online journal. Well I still have it but I haven't updated it for almost 10 weeks now, so that makes it more than 3 months. Hah, almost all of the high lights of my life back in the day are all written on that blog. I read one of my entries from year 2003 and it really made me laugh so hard that I was almost into tears. I was so young back then. I had so much to say and all I want to do is type all the way and share my thoughts on that journal. From the happiest moment in my life to the saddest and worst ones, you can find it all there in that journal. That was my crazy, insanity days hahah .. Hmmm. Whatever happened to me now? I don't know. I just stopped. All of a sudden, I don't want to type and say anything anymore. Or maybe there's just nothing to write anymore? Maybe.. but I guess I just got busy with life that I forgot what I used to love doing before I go to sleep or even start my day.. I miss blogging.
Well I'm still starting over again, here... and i think I'm gonna get used to this.
I'll write more soon.. but for now, can somebody welcome me back? hahahahha